It has been a while, hasn't it?
Anyway, on January 9th I "celebrated" my one-year anniversary of my sudden decline in health. Yay, hooray, woohoo, etc. Party it up.
As you may or may not be able to tell, I am somewhat depressed/upset/irritable, and I blame it entirely on the last year of my life being utterly useless.
On December tenth I celebrated my 20th birthday, and by celebrated I mean "did the same thing I do every day".
I've been spending a lot of time on Stickam with people from Solia lately, and I've met some wonderful friends. Too bad people in the "real world" tend to frown on having internet friends. Some people are also creeped out because a couple of the people I talk to are significantly younger than me. Just because these people are young, does not mean that they cannot have informed opinions or be good friends. And these "children" have been better friends to me over the past few months than anybody I know in real life.
These people appreciate me for who I am, let me talk about the things that worry me, and make me smile on days when all I want to do is cry.
My friends from Stickam have truly kept me sane lately, and I am eternally grateful for their open and accepting hearts, and for their love. I feel like I could possibly be a real person again, and that means a lot to me.
I never used to think that I was a particularly social person, but I have come to realize that without my friends or someone to love, I am restless and uneasy, and my feelings of inadequacy are amplified.
So thank you, my friends, for making my life worth living.